A Ritual

When i saw "Last post 15th November 2009"

I felt a tinge of sadness. I am the least experienced in the band, the one who is always reluctant to spend the money to jam, and I always felt that we're going no where.

That was before

1. we got a bandname

2. we started to build our identity

3. we try hard to source for venues to play.

4. i had the inspiration to drive this band upwards ( hand motion with five fingers pointing to the air )

Now, I believe you all are serious musicians. We dont pour money into the salty sea by paying beat merchant or shiin 40 bucks a shot, to lower our stress level and heal our emotional health by releasing the negative emotions by singing dont look back in anger.

I believe the band, is like any other sport. My apologies - for being the first to roll the snowball, for i remembered there was once upon a time, when it was much easier to set up jamming sessions. But I fucked it up, by giving excuses, and we have to delay the sessions. And like any other team sports, once one team member fuck it up, others dont see a reason why they cant do the same.

What we have to do is hold on together, sit down, and think of a future. What is the future which we want ? Are we playin it purely for recreation ? In any organisation / team / group, we have a target. We must have. If not we are just having fun. And of course- there's nothing wrong with that either. But we have to synchronise our end goals, then we can sync our paths, and manage our expectations.

I hope that we can get more exposure playing for free at events, fuck things up a little, learn and then when we get better, hopefully we can play at some paid events.. and slowly move up.

All the emails and entries about making ourselves better, will not work if we dont talk about what we wanna achieve in 2010.

That's important, and this band has no soul, until we stare into each others' eyes and say, let's fucking do it.

We all have other komitmens. We're not full time musicians. But we have to sit down, and realistically say - ok, let's do 3 times a month. or twice. And stick to the ritual.

I hope we can stack our own pillows and think about the future of this band.

The bassist who cares,

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